Giving Thanks

Hello there

I wanted to lean into the fullness of this moment. I’ll share with you today. 

Post thanksgiving I am filled with so much gratitude and love. If I could float I would for celebrating the holidays are really my thing. I think there’s the light that shines within me for any excuse to commune, dance, sing and indulge in good times. What a true gift it is to spend it with those you love.

I can remember having more but for real having less of myself. Just years prior. I remember showing up to holidays guarded and on edge due to romantic relationship harm and saving face. Really hyper vigilance hijacked my nervous system and I didn’t trust anyone. Yesterday, no face was saved. No need to be. There was only the presence of love and mutual care. The care that says,

“Let’s make the drinks together”

”The baby is with me”

”I got the kids snacks”

”It’s your turn for karaoke, I know your song” (Luther Vandross- never too much)

”That perfume smells so good”

And class if you are wondering if my love languages are still acts of service and words of affirmation… it is lol. 

There is transformation that happens when loved correctly. There is ease, care, and all things joyous. Mistakenly, I thought everyone experiences this. 

Society is an interesting place to live in. To exist in a space where you know love so intimately, that even in the absence of romance in another, life rolls out the red carpet. Social media and its constant images are so relationship centered. Don’t forget you are the embodiment of love. A smile to your kids, a touch to your own skin, an affirmation to your spirit, a text to a friend. Being intentional with your water intake after a night of tequila lol, all a love letter in your language. 

I think I am outgrowing my space. The physical one and the one in my head that says love should look like one thing. How dare I place limits on love? It’s God showing us their existence precedes all other things. Once someone asked me if I thought sex could be a spiritual thing. I was confused in how to explain my answer but I think I have got it now. Regardless of people's use, and intent of sex the act of it has to be spiritual. Let’s get visual and detailed, my favorite. Daily you bypass people, some attractive some not, now you connect with someone you’re attracted to and mutually there’s a decision to engage. Pleasure. bliss. Intimacy at its finest. Literally the act of creation and you tell me that’s not divine? Maybe rethink what divinity is. Unintentionally celibacy has taken its root in me. Because imagine thinking that way about sex with people who think it's casual. There’s no wrong way, only alignment. The more I go with what’s for me, the easier it is to float. Plus men who treat sex and connection like it's divine, engage in devotion which is literally the only way to get me in a white windowless van lol. But there must be windows, for the air and the sun to peek through lol I’m cracking up because an imprisonment wouldn’t be prison at all in my dark humored way. 

Anyways, happy belated turkey day. Free the land. Free the people of the land. Deep love to you all.